Favorite Things, Day 12: Clean Slates & New Beginnings

During  the month of December,  I am setting a goal to post each day with one  of my favorite  somethings. It could be a favorite food, a favorite  thing, a favorite  person, a favorite blog, a favorite handmade thing, a  favorite place...  really a favorite any and everything!   Join me as I review my favorites during December 2010! I'd love to read about your favorites too!

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It's getting close to the time where most people will be setting new goals for the upcoming new year. Choosing which direction their lives will take, and the things they hope to accomplish in the following 12 months.

Oftentimes, I can be found reflecting on my life, on where I am in life, how I got to where I am in life, and where I want to go with my life.

It drives my husband nuts.

Really it does.

But the thought of a clean slate gives me hope.

Hope that I can start over, and eliminate mistakes I've made in the past.

In reality, the mistakes I've made have shaped me into I am today - good and bad. Take it or not, we all make them. Some are bigger than others, some cause damage and some don't. But, none of us are perfect, despite our wishes.

Over the last few months, my life has taken a dramatic change. For as long as I can remember, I've been a working woman. I've been the worker bee, and the boss bitch. I've worked more hours than I care to recall and I have put relationships aside to achieve professional tasks and imagined goals.

Now, I find myself in a new role. The role of a stay at home mom. Sometimes I wonder if I can do it and to be frank - I wonder if it will be "enough" for me. It sounds horrible to me, to think that being a mommy to my wonderful little boy and a wife to my amazing husband might not be "enough" for me. I'll be honest, I'm a bit worried about it.

As a result of this change, lots of other facets of my life and activities will also have to change. I'm in the process of determining how that's going to work out. My focus in life is going to have to be on my family first, and me second.

I'm a selfish person.

Really, I am.

This is going to be a hard adjustment for me. But, I think that in the end, I will be MUCH much better for it. I'm working on setting new goals and aspirations for myself. I'm working on determining what these goals will do for me and how I'll go about seeing them to fruition.

Clean slates are good things, they're great things even. But, they can be scary too!

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